It has been a few weeks since I have blogged, but things are going utterly insane in my life right now... The previous post I wrote was about a recent trying time in my life and marriage. We managed to get through that :) Now we have some big decisions to make in the next few months, and I am hoping and praying, it is what God is willing for our lives. It is so hard to understand the right places where God wants us to be. We ask ourselves over and over, "is this the will of God, or just my own selfish desires?" This is a question that I have been asking myself for the last two weeks. There are going to be some serious and huge decisions made and I want God in the midst of those decisions. I'm just not sure if this is what He has planned, or if it's mine and my husbands own way of dealing with this struggle.
I want to tell more but right now I can't. I'm not really looking for feedback or input, I just needed to get some things said to make me feel better. I have been constantly praying about this particular situation, but I'm not sure if I'm getting many answers. There have been a few doors close, that I am totally aware of, and it seems as if others are opening. I'm just not sure in which direction to go. I am trying very hard to not stress out about this, as much as I would like to, so I don't completely lose my sanity...
So for now things are just dormant. Hopefully, in the next few weeks God will give me a certain answer and make things ever so clear for me. I am completely trusting Him in this whole situation, and I believe that He will show my hubby and I just the right places we need to be...
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Forgive and Forget
There comes a point in your life when you have to make yourself forgive past mistakes. Everyone does it, everyone messes up. There's many times when we say something we don't mean, do something we regret later, or even don't do something that we wish we would have. Jesus, tells us to forgive the past, because if we dwell on it especially, we will kill ourselves with hatred. He forgives us for things that we do everyday. I know as humans, it is very hard to forgive and there does come a point where enough can be enough. God does not want us getting run over like freight trains either. But I think about this, God gets run over all the time. He loves us so much that He gives us the free-will to do as we please. He doesn't tie us down, back us into a corner, or demand that we follow Him. That's our choice.
So why can't we be the same? Yes, we do get hurt, we disagree, we sometimes get taken advantage of, so does God. If we are supposed to be in Christ's image that means that we need to act as Christ is in us. I do admit more often than not, I don't act like a Christian. I have my faults, we all do. Forgiveness, is one of those, in most people.
I learned a long time ago to forgive. More often than not I forgive way to easily.
As an early teenager, I had a very hard time growing up. With losing my virginity at a young age, and having inappropriate things done to me by a family member, life was not easy.
It took me many years to forgive these things and move on from those experiences. They affected the way that I interacted with my friends and family. They affected every aspect of my life, until I learned how to forgive the one's who caused the trouble.
I read my Bible, looked up passages about forgiveness and what God says about it. Then I found the story of the cross. We all know the story, heard it a million times, but when you actually need to forgive someone to that magnitude, it shows a whole different story. After what was done to Jesus, He still hung there on the cross asking His Father to forgive those who had persecuted Him. Now, if He can forgive something like that, then it should be simple to forgive the minuscule things that happen to us. Yeah, right!
We have to learn to forgive, it doesn't come naturally by any means.
Forgetting is a whole other story in itself. We can never 100% forget about the things that happened in the past, but we CAN move on from them. I don't think God intended us to ever truly forget the past so that we may learn from our mistakes, and correct them for future reference. We may not ever forget, but we can learn and not repeat those same mistakes.
So why can't we be the same? Yes, we do get hurt, we disagree, we sometimes get taken advantage of, so does God. If we are supposed to be in Christ's image that means that we need to act as Christ is in us. I do admit more often than not, I don't act like a Christian. I have my faults, we all do. Forgiveness, is one of those, in most people.
I learned a long time ago to forgive. More often than not I forgive way to easily.
As an early teenager, I had a very hard time growing up. With losing my virginity at a young age, and having inappropriate things done to me by a family member, life was not easy.
It took me many years to forgive these things and move on from those experiences. They affected the way that I interacted with my friends and family. They affected every aspect of my life, until I learned how to forgive the one's who caused the trouble.
I read my Bible, looked up passages about forgiveness and what God says about it. Then I found the story of the cross. We all know the story, heard it a million times, but when you actually need to forgive someone to that magnitude, it shows a whole different story. After what was done to Jesus, He still hung there on the cross asking His Father to forgive those who had persecuted Him. Now, if He can forgive something like that, then it should be simple to forgive the minuscule things that happen to us. Yeah, right!
We have to learn to forgive, it doesn't come naturally by any means.
Forgetting is a whole other story in itself. We can never 100% forget about the things that happened in the past, but we CAN move on from them. I don't think God intended us to ever truly forget the past so that we may learn from our mistakes, and correct them for future reference. We may not ever forget, but we can learn and not repeat those same mistakes.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Watch Out!
Satan is on a rampage lately in my life. He is trying to destroy a now great relationship, with some old history. It's a little too complicated and drawn out to explain the whole story, but these are some past mistakes that were made. A few days ago I receive a phone call from someone I don't know, with some information about my husband. I had no idea who this girl was or how she knew me. The phone call was disturbing, so I talked to my husband about it. So, we talked and he did admit to me that the events that took place did happen, but previously, not within the time frame she had said. Now I don't know about you, but I am a little more inclined to believe my husband over someone I have no idea who they are. Anyway, things got worse and the situation escalated to where some of his family got involved. It's a big mess. This happened in the past, and things are going really great for us, that I don't at all understand why this is all happening now.
I know that no matter how hard you try, the past always has a way of catching up with you.
The thing for me is that I haven't gotten angry, really stressed, or worried myself sick over this incident. It may sound a little self-centered but I truly believe that both him and I have grown up, given our previous experiences and screw-ups with each other. I truly believe that we can get through anything because of what we have encountered. This is just another one of Satan's horrible tricks to make a happy family (that we have fought very hard for) dissolve.
We have been studying the book of Revelation at church, and we are growing in our faith together, and Satan hates that. He despises that we are working very hard at making our relationship work and forgiving and forgetting the past mistakes. He despises that we are studying and learning from God's Holy Word. He despises that I, personally, despise him. He is also trying so hard that now some of the family is involved, which of course, makes it worse.
So, I'm not sure what we are going to do. I am very angry at the person(s) responsible for this, and the fact that it is just now being brought up. I am also very angry because it has escalated to a point where no one can imagine.
With this said, I warn you may dear friends to be very watchful and alert of the things that Satan is trying to do. I am praying from this time forward that Jesus' return is very soon, so that we don't have to deal with this mess, called life, anymore.
What trials and tribulations have you overcome recently? What things has Satan tried to do to ruin a good thing in your life? Please share, maybe it will lift my spirits :)
I know that no matter how hard you try, the past always has a way of catching up with you.
The thing for me is that I haven't gotten angry, really stressed, or worried myself sick over this incident. It may sound a little self-centered but I truly believe that both him and I have grown up, given our previous experiences and screw-ups with each other. I truly believe that we can get through anything because of what we have encountered. This is just another one of Satan's horrible tricks to make a happy family (that we have fought very hard for) dissolve.
We have been studying the book of Revelation at church, and we are growing in our faith together, and Satan hates that. He despises that we are working very hard at making our relationship work and forgiving and forgetting the past mistakes. He despises that we are studying and learning from God's Holy Word. He despises that I, personally, despise him. He is also trying so hard that now some of the family is involved, which of course, makes it worse.
So, I'm not sure what we are going to do. I am very angry at the person(s) responsible for this, and the fact that it is just now being brought up. I am also very angry because it has escalated to a point where no one can imagine.
With this said, I warn you may dear friends to be very watchful and alert of the things that Satan is trying to do. I am praying from this time forward that Jesus' return is very soon, so that we don't have to deal with this mess, called life, anymore.
What trials and tribulations have you overcome recently? What things has Satan tried to do to ruin a good thing in your life? Please share, maybe it will lift my spirits :)
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